Monday, November 29, 2004

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to all bloggers. stop with your self pitying, underlying message entries. just come out and say it will you!
a lesson in the language of 1337 talk.
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oh yeah you known i just pwned joo!
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so anyway. im missing the land of miss vanda joaquim or whatever you spell it as. :). the skin on my ankle split today after playing tennis yesterday. it seems like the grand canyon but just skin. im walking on my toe for now until the grand canyon gets filled up with human fluid which will then solidify and my grand canyon shall become my flat plateu.
ya yaya ok i have problems with spelling and im 17. big fricking deal. go be concerned with the dying children in bosnia and russia instead! oh speaking of dying children. theres this thing over here. like instead of buying each other christmas presents they buy each other sheep and goats. no not to keep but to give to people in africa who are poor and starving. like "to you to them from me" thats their motto. yeah pretty good idea since we all run out of things to buy for each other. goat anyone? baaa.

James Barr at 1:11 PM

Sunday, November 28, 2004

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is it just me or do my last two entries look uncanilly similar.
how the heck do you spell uncanilly

James Barr at 10:57 AM

before i start i am going to *bang bang* kill all these *bang* people that leave *bang!* freaky testimonials described ,*bang* ohh nice shot, in my last entry.
played some tennis at my dads tennis club. knocked the balls around with a few people there. following the tennis ritual of heading to the pub only less than an hour before playing. its probably all a scam anyway. since the year before i seem to have been promoted to full pint of beer instead of the usual 250ml coke. it was all adult talk basically, if you classify them as adults that is. ended up watching the arsenal liverpool game on the television and making small talk with a 60 year old. all good. but then again looking around, i found everyone at the table seemed to have a beer/pot belly. and i again considered the consequences of drinking this mug in front of me. after the first it didnt seem much of a thought anymore.
anyhow, major MAJOR culture shock. its sort of being thrown into the deep end, which is probably the best way to get a baby to swim. thats what my father did when i was a small child. throw im in and he'l swim on his own he said. half drowning thats what i did. its human survival i think. its like a second nature that humans have that prevent them from drowning. its like if you were surrounded by twenty hunters aiming at your head. and there was only a small gun on the ground in front of you. the natural instint would be to fight for your life and grab the gun and hold one hunter hostage.
its best to press enter before you sidetrack. as you can imagine why this entry sounds so weird. im off to watch the 2 hour simpsons marathon on tv. DOH!
i miss all you people.

James Barr at 10:18 AM

Friday, November 26, 2004

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its proven that when one is bored he can do some pretty retardated things. so today i tried surfing around on friendster. from person to person. trying to find the bengest and lianest people around. after about 10 mins of just clicking, i found myself to be slightly disturbed by the testimonials some of these people have. these "BaBy^PwIncEss"s leave spaced out decorated with flowers and V0.ov (yo peace) signs all over. not to mention the language they use. i dont even know whether its allowed to be called english. anyhow, these people need saving. they should set up a foundation to help needy people such as these. goodness.. see for yourself.
an example my friends:
"she everytime say mi "gonggong" de den i will beat her 1 hor pitch her lor... She is veri friendly de or... she got 1 small bro also everytime bully mi 1 lor... they 2 so bad hor... write till here lor... nth 2 write liao...$!Y!N dao chi yi you"
you have seen it with your very own eyes. or another one perhaps.
"ni hao mahs .... lay kun har..a beri good de girl de friends _- lols...treat her friends beri good de....she har...cute? lols....yar..friendly..haha,,,exam coming liao wor..must work harderrrr...kKae liao ..i write till here le...bUais"
i have never known that such people exist. i always thought they were just people normal people kept in mind to poke fun at. just by linking someone with this testimonial to another, then to another, the testimonials just seem to get worse and worse and worse. sorry for my ranting but please.. someone save the fucking world!

James Barr at 9:34 AM

Thursday, November 25, 2004

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my dad : " your sister hasnt paid the fucking rent again. the fucking rent company called me up today again. i mean what the fuck is she doing?...."
i guess after a while... you get used to it. :)

on another note. the wedding is next week. think im gonna open one of those photoalbum crap things to store all the photos in. then it would be easier. ive been appointed one of the photographers so i get to take pictures of lots of drunk people swearing. woot. in the meantime im just gonna sit here and wait for lunch. then after lunch im going to sit on the couch and wait for dinner. after which i will wait to get tired. ahhh what a life. i should actually try to get a bit fitter but...

James Barr at 6:19 AM

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

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been sneezing blood since the plane trip. not a very nice photo but... *achoo* euch...

not much better.. but this is my dad. hahaha!

this is the colour of scottish water.. wtf...

where i am sleeping.

kitchen. well.. i got to get one of those picture places. then it wont take ages for the blog to load. but then again lets just make people suffer. mwahah! ahem.. *achoo* euch.. AARRRRR. yes..

James Barr at 4:55 AM

Monday, November 22, 2004

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haha kudos to ms hacker.
in bonnie scotland now. freezi ma bollocks off. it was literally freezing point when i arrived with a slight drizzle. so i was pretty frickin cold. its such a good break away from my mother. bad to say but seriously... i needed it. looks like my dad has a friend that knows french and im being hooked up for intensive french lessons so wheni return ill have at least a small clue on what the language is about. so that i can take my a levels next year. holy fuckin shit im screwed.
anyway. dads wedding (not to my mum. if your wondering) is next thursday. everyones exited including me. its not gonna be a catholic one i think so it shouldnt be too dull. brides wearing a black dress. hahah. and no im not gonna be wearing a scottish skirt aka kilt.
basically what im doing is eating walking around the house watching tv eating and sleeping and going to town. what a life. but theres still stuff on the mind. sucks. also got the craving to jam with jeremy again. ahah. one month to christmas. :)) im trying to get pictures...
till then! then!

James Barr at 10:28 AM

Sunday, November 21, 2004

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SURPRISE JAMES!!
oh, i am world's best hackeress. ( :
we miss you james,
come back quick.
and dell, please dont tell me youre going off too? ) :
<3>

James Barr at 11:29 AM

Friday, November 19, 2004

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well well.. what have we here...
whats that i see? dont tell me its a tear.
when can we be free.
why cant you see.
why cant you let me go.
go ahead and create this catastrophe.

as once said by Greenday..

"i walk a lonely road,
the only one that i have ever known.
dont know where it goes.
but its home to me and i walk alone.
i walk this empty street,
on the boulivard of broken dreams,
where the city sleeps.
and im the only one."

very well said. its probably how alot of people feel at this point in life. when nothing makes sense and everyones just lost like sheep. looking for some meaning. love? money? whatever it is. not everyone though. only a selective few. left broken and lying upon the marble floor. let him peice you together. its going to hurt but its going to be done. no more trying. theres no more trying tonight. another addition to the imaginary catastrophe. that could be used in a song. hmm. good night everyone. hopefully il see you in the morning. when we wake up in a pool of non existant blood. ok stop it james...

James Barr at 9:29 AM

stradford(works in sushi tei) : "the guy cope the fish. take the two dollar fish cut into two peices then he give the $1 to the customer then he take the $2 rest for himself."

riggggghtt...

leonard : "stradford. how you cut $2 into $1 and $2"
stradford : "no la cannot la. what you all talking. you all best sia. $2 can make into $3"
james : slaps head

James Barr at 8:34 AM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

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dieing inside wednesday
dieing inside thursday
dieing inside friday
leaving saturday.
off to see dad in scotland. havent seen im in a year. miss him? yes.
off from singapore. wont see friends for a month. miss them? yes.
off from home. wont see mother for a month. miss her? yes.no.yes.
and you...
well to jjjm. it was fun yes.(our ironic title for the song)
well to tommorrow. it will be fun yes. i sure hope so.
best of luck to those taking their Spapers this week. lets all pray and hope for the best. im sure all of you will do just fine. dont worry too much.
watch out for kerpal in the next few days. you dont know when hes going to attack you! WOO. i only managed to fail on dhanesh by saying "your dog came to my house today and kicked my daughter".. damm that. lol.
the virus cleaner is coming... better go!
"but i see you, and your the only thing there.in a backgroud of black, and white spots, like bulletholes through his shirt.you came swimming into view"

James Barr at 1:01 AM

Sunday, November 14, 2004

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i crave this.
will it ever be?
heh.

James Barr at 9:15 AM

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

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www.purevolume.com could probably be the best website in the history of....
ah forget it.. ITS AWESOME.
holy shit im addicted.

James Barr at 11:49 AM

its 2.41am. ive just woken up from a pretty disturbing sleep. cant get good rest nowadays. technically i shouldnt be doing this but nightmares have made me think other wise. maybe its the hours of listening to emo rock thats made me bitter and morbid in the past few hours. i dunno emo lyrics just seem to have this deadly realism in that these things actually happen to people and people do go mad cut themselves,family,friends. its all part of life whether you like it or not. some people live with this, and some people dont.
not like many people actually read this.. but im just gonna go on anyway. sometimes you just loose hope in the world around you. you see no purpose of direction in your life. no meaning as to what you are doing. and even if there is a purpose its either futile or redundant. suddenly people turn on you. you learn and you move on. you learn the value of trust. you learn whos true to you. its not all happy around. dont pretend it is.
then you have people who think this kind of mindset is for the weak and those that have negativity and no optimism. but its the harsh reality. im not complaining, just complying.
and well whatever untruths are out there. you not gonna be able to change them. their carved into the flesh upon your forehead on display to all. so whats left to do? but put on a fake smile and let life swallow us whole. and this my friend(?) is what 4 hours of emo music can do to you. depressing no?


"See You" by saves the day.
My gut is burning. Won't you find me some water?Hey, just forget it can you bring me gasolineand collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apartand wait for lightning to strike to burn me up?Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach tostomach calling you today.My head is swirling. It's been carried off in the skyand where it lands is where is lands.So I guess that I will get another head and then get on with my lifeand leave you somewhere beneath the waves of time.And I'll wear glass shoes and plastic wrap.No, I'll just wear my insides.You want to know who I really am?Yeah so do I, yeah so do I.Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach tostomach calling you today.Right now I am turning off the lightscause I don't think that I've got the stomach tostomach calling you today.

James Barr at 10:44 AM

Monday, November 08, 2004

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sz cornerz?

classic la.


our bowling.


our.. uhhh ya umbrella connotations.


shoes to go!


how we love tan jek suan so much. jek ah aiyooo.


hahah. well a tribute to what we were. what we are. and what we will be.
whatever it is. lets keep the sz spirit in all of us.
/\/

James Barr at 5:00 AM

Sunday, November 07, 2004

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probably you know what would be better. if i left an empty entry. like a whiteboard. gave you people a marker. and said. write what your thinking right now. heres probably what would go through your head...
what would you write?
would you write something truthful?
would you write how you feel?
or would you write how you deal?
would you write something happy? sad? hopeful?
or write something fake? angsty? hateful?
its all up to you.
what you would probably do is just ignore the entry.
carry on with what your doing. going about the hurtfull days.
its just a whiteboard afterall...
BUT...
what if the pen you were using were a knife.
and the board. my skin.
would that be a different story alltogether.
theres probably no sense in this entry at all.
take it or leave it.in the end its your call.

i wrote this ages ago.
i am not myself.denying the one thing that is true.disreguarding being real.i am my worst enemy.so take up your hand,part your fingers.and put them to your lips,swear you wont tell.becuz im already broken.

and now im standing here,at the corner of worchester.i am invisible, they see right through me.i am invisible, oh how i wish i was invisible.i wont have to look them in the eye.and i wont have to say goodbye,anymore.but swear you wont tell.because you would reveal me.im already mentioned.

just run and keep going.until i reach my destination,in a circle.i dont know where im going.but i see you, and your the only thing there.in a backgroud of black,and white spots, like bulletholes through his shirt.you came swimming into view.

walk down the beach alone,sand beneath my leather ridden shoes.waves crashing onto my feet.think about life my friend.think about how its not the end.think about yourself.but dont put others on the shelf.think about what its about.liberate yourself, shout.think about this my friend.

i dont know...

James Barr at 8:09 AM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

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quit messing with peoples lives.
you cant play god.
every new day amazes me.
good or bad i dunno.
ive started not to give a fuck.

James Barr at 1:25 PM

Monday, November 01, 2004

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my blogs become stagnant. stagnant as and old granny in a wheelchair without wheels and rusted sides. yup... not much has really gone on in my life since the last time i blogged. i whole bunch of events in which im too lazy to describe them and if i do it probably wont be interesting anyway. im still the same old ----tard since the last entries. hmmm well promos are over ages ago. got EEE which i aint too happy about. since i got EEE my mum has gone all eee on me asking me to come home early and some other shit. since shes been working at home shes gone all emo. according to sarah ppl who work from home go crazy after a while. i know i shouldve done better but i ask the question how. i worked hard (NOT) and studied for it. i guess not hard enough. how hard exactly must one study in jc sia. its freken nuts. its like either you have it or not or your caught on the in between achieving nothing. neither failure nor sucess. thats not much use is it.
had my PW presentation today. wasnt too bad. think it was quite good cept for the file which was quite messy. heh. but its quality not quantity. wait that means... ah forget it. nice one CJ010! all those fricken days staying up for PW. its all over. woot! go to hell pw. you should never exist. EVER
well.. many people going through rough times nows. just hang in there all of ya. dont worry la the most just commit suicide la. i mean statistically its quite a respectable way of solving problems. but then again. lifes too precious (NOT) to kill. why dont you make a baby first. ok on a serious note, there will always be the last train home.
good luck to all the losers taking mother tongue this friday/thursday. it wil be your turn to laugh and mock and scold me nx year when i take mine. yes looking forward to suffering. its only A levels what. no biggie. do your best.
oh and good luck for the supp paper people. im sure youll all make it. dont worry to much. :D study hard. i guess this entry had some meaning to it. :) unlike what some people (james) say about my blog. sometimes james just pisses me off with all his crap. go away james.
- alter ego. BYE

James Barr at 8:23 AM

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