_don't bother trying to explain, angel

those of you who think you are narcissistic because you think its a cool word and lots of people use it so it must be cool. so i think ill just describe myself as narcissistic. heehee, think again because it means more than just i love myself. its wake up call time because narcissists are not simply beautifull people who love themselves oh so dearly. and in the first place noone is like that and therefore your contradicting yourself. let me now show you what a narcissist really means.
1 Self-centered. His needs are paramount.
2. No remorse for mistakes or misdeeds.
3 Unreliable, undependable.
4. Does not care about the consequences of his actions.
5. Projects his faults on to others. High blaming behavior; never his fault.
6. Little if any conscience.
. 7. Insensitive to needs and feelings of others.
8. Has a good front (persona) to impress and exploit others.
9.. Low stress tolerance. Easy to anger and rage.
10. People are to be manipulated for his needs.
11. Rationalizes easily. Twists conversation to his gain at other’s expense. If trapped, keeps talking, changes the subject or gets angry.
12. Pathological lying.
13.Tremendous need to control situations, conversations, others.
14. No real values. Mostly situational.
15. Often perceived as caring and understanding and uses this to manipulate.
16. Angry, mercurial, moods.
17. Uses sex to control
18. Does not share ideas, feelings, emotions.
19. Conversation controller. Must have the first and last word.
20. Is very slow to forgive others. Hangs onto resentment.
21. Secret life. Hides money, friends, activities.
22. Likes annoying others. Likes to create chaos and disrupt for no reason.
23. Moody - switches from nice guy to anger without much provocation.
24. Repeatedly fails to honor financial obligations.
25. Seldom expresses appreciation.
26. Grandiose. Convinced he knows more than others and is correct in all he does.
27. Lacks ability to see how he comes across to others. Defensive when confronted with his behavior. Never his fault.
28. Can get emotional, tearful. This is about show or frustration rather than sorrow.
29. He breaks woman's spirits to keep them dependent.
30.Needs threats, intimidations to keep others close to him.
31. Sabotages partner. Wants her to be happy only through him and to have few or no outside interests and acquaintances.
32. Highly contradictory.
33. Convincing. Must convince people to side with him.
34. Hides his real self. Always “on”
35. Kind only if he's getting from you what he wants.
36. He has to be right. He has to win. He has to look good.
37. He announces, not discusses. He tells, not asks.
38. Does not discuss openly, has a hidden agenda.
39. Controls money of others but spends freely on himself.
40. Unilateral condition of, "I'm OK and justified so I don't need to hear your position or ideas"
41. Always feels misunderstood.
42. You feel miserable with this person. He drains you.
43. Does not listen because he does not care.
44. His feelings are discussed, not the partners.
45. Is not interested in problem-solving..
46. Very good at reading people, so he can manipulate them
so the next time you say. "hee hee im just a narcissistic gurl!!~" think again.

so then i found this on a website.
"Hello and welcome to a site for narcissists, their families, workers and friends. If you are struggling with a life of pain and fear and trauma from an interaction with a narcissist, you are not alone. There is help. And if you are a narcissist and come to learn, this is your place too. "
and then further down.

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and then even further down.
READY TO MEET SOMEONE NEW? Lose that narcisisst and find someone who knows how to LOVE normally! They exist. But you have to act. Someone could be waiting for you here. A NEW DATE.
and then i thought to myself how fucked up this world really is.
haha good day.