Sunday, November 07, 2004

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probably you know what would be better. if i left an empty entry. like a whiteboard. gave you people a marker. and said. write what your thinking right now. heres probably what would go through your head...
what would you write?
would you write something truthful?
would you write how you feel?
or would you write how you deal?
would you write something happy? sad? hopeful?
or write something fake? angsty? hateful?
its all up to you.
what you would probably do is just ignore the entry.
carry on with what your doing. going about the hurtfull days.
its just a whiteboard afterall...
BUT...
what if the pen you were using were a knife.
and the board. my skin.
would that be a different story alltogether.
theres probably no sense in this entry at all.
take it or leave it.in the end its your call.

i wrote this ages ago.
i am not myself.denying the one thing that is true.disreguarding being real.i am my worst enemy.so take up your hand,part your fingers.and put them to your lips,swear you wont tell.becuz im already broken.

and now im standing here,at the corner of worchester.i am invisible, they see right through me.i am invisible, oh how i wish i was invisible.i wont have to look them in the eye.and i wont have to say goodbye,anymore.but swear you wont tell.because you would reveal me.im already mentioned.

just run and keep going.until i reach my destination,in a circle.i dont know where im going.but i see you, and your the only thing there.in a backgroud of black,and white spots, like bulletholes through his shirt.you came swimming into view.

walk down the beach alone,sand beneath my leather ridden shoes.waves crashing onto my feet.think about life my friend.think about how its not the end.think about yourself.but dont put others on the shelf.think about what its about.liberate yourself, shout.think about this my friend.

i dont know...

James Barr at 8:09 AM

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